I can’t take it anymore. My self-esteem has gone down to the point I hate looking at myself. My face is ugly, my body isn’t the way it used to be. I just wish I can go back in time when everything was easy. I never used to care what other people thought of me. For some reason, now I do. I don’t have many friends, I lost most of them. I used to think I had everything good, until now. I hate being around my family because all they do is make fun of me. I used to ignore them, but now I can’t. I try to ignore them but it has gotten to the point, where all their comments hurt. I don’t take it as a joke anymore, I take it personal, because as much as they say they are “just kidding” its true. They only say just kidding to make me feel better, but it doesn’t help whatsoever. They know its true, and I know its true. The media out there, points out to you that the only way you can survive in this cruel world is to be beautiful on the outside. No one cares whats in a person’s heart anymore. All that anyone cares about is their appearance. I have no one to turn to anymore, all I can do is try my best to be the person I am. I can say all this stuff, but I know its just going to hurt more without anyone to have your back, or to turn to. All I have is myself, which sometimes is okay, but in some occasions its never okay to be alone.
