May 2011
1 post
wow, i haven’t posted in awhile. sorry for whoever was actually reading my post. don’t think anyone did. but its okay i don’t expect for anyone to read my post.
when i read back to my posts i start to cry cause nothing has changed. & i’m not going to blame anyone but myself for that problem because i never made that move to change it. i guess thats what hurts the most....
August 2010
2 posts
wow, just noticed i am not who i was. and that is not a good thing. i used to be social. now im not. i realized now that when i meet new people im quieter than i used to be. 2 years ago, it was so easy for me to meet new people. to get along and easy to start up a conversation. now i feel like i cant. i feel like im thinking too much now. i love the person i used to be. now, i just dont know. im...
one day, im going to find the people that will...
April 2010
2 posts
“never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game”
– Hilary Duff as Sam Montgomery in “A Cinderella Story”
ugh. i hate posting up stupid emo shit. but i cant help it. this blog is my escape. no one knows who i am. everyday im just hoping i can go back to my old self.
March 2010
1 post
i miss the days when i had the people that i can talk to about anything. not only whats happening with my life when i need a cheering up but just talk about anything. i dont have that anymore because my trust is so limited that everyone around me, i cant talk to anymore. i used to have those people. its not because we stopped talking because we still talk. they just lost my trust. i hate being...
February 2010
1 post
I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and be satisfied. I don’t always have to look good, I’m not trying to make anyone else happy but myself. Like I said in my previous post, self-esteem. My biggest problem in 2009. In 2010 I’m looking to change it and keep it throughout my life. That is what I’m doing, but when you don’t have encouragement and no one by...
December 2009
1 post
Self-Esteem
I can’t take it anymore. My self-esteem has gone down to the point I hate looking at myself. My face is ugly, my body isn’t the way it used to be. I just wish I can go back in time when everything was easy. I never used to care what other people thought of me. For some reason, now I do. I don’t have many friends, I lost most of them. I used to think I had everything good, until...
November 2009
2 posts
There are people in your life that will leave, and there are people that will stay. For some reason, I can never find the ones that stay. They always say that they will, but in the end, they always end up leaving. They say they “promise” but that promise always seems to be broken. I dislike it when people make promises they can’t keep. Why can’t they just say that they will...
